I feel like everything happening in my personal life is setting the stage for me to leave [insert hometown] for good..I’ve always been drawn back and/or held back because of my family..when I left back in 2010 I thought it was for good, but as time progressed I knew I would be returning, it was more of a spiritual//personal quest..that’s how I look back on it anyways. But as of late I tend to look back and see how much I’ve progressed and the knowledge that I’ve gained, I’ve become more observant and the first thing I always notice, I’m not the same as these people..these people that sit around me while I eat, these people the lurk around me at the office, these people that drunkenly flail around me at bars an clubs..nope, I’m not one of them. I’m not saying I’m better, just realizing I want more..Recently I’ve fallen in with a new set of people, like minded individuals that strive purely to be the masters of their craft. I look at them some what as a new family; we support, inspire, provide for and build each other..it’s truly an amazing group. Now I’m not sure how their family structure is at home, but I know how mine is, or lack there of, I know my family has fallen apart.I know my grandparents are dying, my uncle has a family of his own and my mother is moving towards the same thing with her new found love..shit even my dog is dying..so I really feel like I won’t have a family to fall back, hold me back or come back to. So, the best part is the one thing my new family members have in common, we all want out.We are done with this state shaped toilet they call [insert home state] I know I appreciate every experience I’ve ever had here positive & negative because it helped me grow, but I’ve grown beyond the borders of this suburb, city, state and all bordering affiliates. I’m ready to back my bags for the last time and say au revior to this wretched “city” of mine. thanks for the memories, but you’ll never be in my thoughts.
Posted May 20, 2013 at 7:39pm